lesson


thrifted Jay Jays top / handmade skirt / ASOS shoes, belt, sunglasses






Open your mouth only if what you are going to say is more beautiful than the silence.

xx

here i come


thrifted Witchery top / vintage skirt / ASOS shoes





Photos by Cassie

manifesto


Etam Weekend top / ASOS skirt & shoes / thrifted belt / Alphabet Bags tote


(Photos by Angie)

BEAUTY IN A MEANINGLESS EXISTENCE,
or, an atheist's manifesto


Someone once said to me, "If there is no god and life is meaningless, then why don't you just go kill yourself?"

I want to share this picture with you today. Take some time, and really let it sink it -- it's a truly moving experience.

The first time I saw it, I was humbled. I felt indescribably small, and to be honest, more than a little bit like my life was utterly pointless. (Did you know that there are over a hundred billion galaxies in the universe?) In the grand scheme of this incomprehensibly massive cosmos, our lives mean absolutely nothing. All of our actions, all our emotions, every single one of our most life-affirming experiences -- all forgotten and all for nothing once we're gone.

But that thought doesn't scare me...and why should it? What's up with humanity's preoccupation to assign meaning to every little thing? If our lives don't have any sort of inherent purpose, what's the harm in simply letting that be? It doesn't change the fact that our existence is beautiful and miraculous and utterly mind-blowing.

And you know what's most inspiring? Regardless of how small we may feel, we are the universe, and the universe is us. We are stardust come to life. Our bodies are literally formed by particles of the very same stars we see at night. We are a configuration of starstuff, and when we die, those particles dissipate back into the universe, to be reformulated into another organism in the future. One way or another, we have always been, and will always be, a part of this universe.

In the face of all of this, isn't it amazing that we're alive? What are the chances that the Earth was formed with the conditions to sustain life? Think of all events since the transition to multicellularity that had to occur, just as it did, for you to be sitting here reading my blog post. Of all the billions upon billions of stars and star particles in this universe, what are the chances that a particular few assembled in just the right way, resulting in you? If any of that happened even a fraction of a bit differently, you might not be alive.

Now take a moment to listen to 'On the Edge of a Cliff' by The Streets...

For billions of years since the outset of time
Every single one of your ancestors has survived
Every single person on your mum and dad's side
Successfully looked after and passed on to you life.
What are the chances of that like?


Despite how small our existence is, we can't take it for granted. It is our only life as this particular composition of stardust, and if it is ultimately meaningless, then this adventure is merely limited by the confines of our imagination. Go forth and conquer.

xx

full of frills


Temt dress (worn as top) / Blaque Label skirt / ASOS shoes


I'm back! And I'm officially on holidays until February! I've finished my second year of uni, and it's so strange to think that next year will be the last one before I graduate. It's honestly gone by so quickly; uni is what I'd worked towards for thirteen years, and the thought of 'but what comes after?' had never entered my mind. The idea of not having a concrete goal to strive for is unbelievably terrifying....



Taking a break from the blog was surprisingly good for me; it really helped me put my priorities straight, and it taught me that not updating 4-5 times a week isn't the end of the world. I was the blogger who was all caught up in page views and reader stats, but during little my hiatus, I didn't check any of them once. It was so freeing!

Most of all, it made me realize that it's okay if I don't feel like taking outfit photos everyday, and fewer page views as a result of that doesn't make me less of a person. If I blog because I love it, then page views shouldn't even enter the equation.

So, from now on, I might be updating a little less frequently than before...because you know what? Living is a lot more fun than forcing myself to blog. :)



Photos by Angie & Cassie

tennis


Abercrombie & Fitch top / Topshop skirt / thrifted Wittner sandals / Miss Shop belt / ASOS sunglasses


I've been gone for ages! This was my most recent outfit, but I have about two weeks' worth of photos which I'll get to eventually; studying has stolen all my blogging spirit lately...

Classes are over, and all I have left are three finals before the end of the year! It's hard to believe that it's already November, and is it just me, or has 2011 really flown by? In January, I'll be 20 years old (!!!!). Anyway, I'll stop talking about that now so I can continue being in denial... ;D



I got this tank top at an outdoor market in Beijing, so it's most likely fake, but I've got such a weakness for brightly-colored basics! Especially when they're cheap, and for $5 each, I ended up with a few.

Simple outfits have been my uniform lately, and as it's really beginning to feel like summer, I haven't been bothered to be overly fussy with what I wear. Sydney summers can be incredibly hot and humid, so it's not the best 'dress-up' environment -- what's the point if everyone become a stinking, sweaty mess by 10 am? ;D



Photos by Cassie

pb + c


Duck Head Jeans Co. top / ASOS skirt / Valleygirl belt / Zara shoes


Just a quick post for the moment; I've got so much on my plate at the moment, and final exams are drawing ever so close! I don't think I've ever felt this unprepared in my life! Uni is currently taking precedence over the blog, so it'll be slow going for the next few weeks, but once the holidays are here, I hope to much better at posting! :)

Here's another simple outfit, but I really like it because it reminds me of chocolate and peanut butter...and I've been craving it ever since! Anything to take my mind off my studies...


sporty


thrifted Jay Jays top / handmade skirt / Valleygirl belt / Keds shoes


Terrible blogger's back...I'm so sorry! Uni work is once again getting in the way of my hobbies: I have two French tests this week, and a philosophy essay due Friday. I'm being kind of terrible and updating from my global politics tute, but we're discussing US corruption in the Middle East (my favorite topic!), so I've been contributing. :)

I've noticed that I've been dressing a little more simply lately. Only two colors? How lazy! ;)




SONG OF THE MOMENT | Blue October - 'The Feel Again (Stay)'

And I see the sun go up as your image
And I feel the weight of your eyes as you stare
I feel it all when you, when you thirst, when you kissed my lips
You used to make me feel at home, you made me feel at home, you made me feel again




Listening to a Blue October album is never less than an emotionally-draining experience. Every song, whether uplifting or despondent, manages to express through words and music every feeling I've ever felt, in a completely heartfelt and genuine way. There's no cheese, no beating around the bush; everything is raw and real and simply cuts to the core.

Their latest album is a story of divorce, custody battles, love and loathing, coping, and finally moving on from something that at one point meant everything. There was a rock in my throat the first time I listened to it, and it affected me like no other album ever had. Though I've never been through a divorce, Justin's voice makes me feel his experience. He conveys happiness, anger, loss, despair, and hope so well...and you can almost hear his heartbreak because sometimes it literally sounds like he's on the edge of a breakdown.

Blue October is my favorite band, and this song is something special.



Photos by Stephen

every shade


Temt top / Milk & Honey skirt / Valleygirl belt / ASOS socks / Mossimo shoes






Photos by mom

like summer


ASOS dress / Topshop sandals / Barkins sunglasses


Here's me dressing light on Monday because it was 30 degrees! Sadly, the nice hot weather's disappeared and been replaced by dull and dreary rain. I'm really looking forward to summer, if only for consistent sunshine! :)



There's some sad/annoying news about this dress: I tossed it in the washing mashine, and it came out with laundry stains! Navy splotches all over the skirt, which I tried getting out with detergent and soap-scrubbing. I was so desperate that I ended up using that stuff you bleach the tiles with! And it actually worked pretty well -- it got most of the stains out, and there's only a faint trace of blue on the floral embroidery. It's not very noticeable but I'm anal retentive, so I'm on the lookout for fabric dye; the next time I wear this dress, it'll be purple! :)



SONG OF THE MOMENT | The Airborne Toxic Event - 'All I Ever Wanted'

I can tell you that you're all I ever wanted, dear
And I can utter every word you'd ever hope to hear
I shudder when I think that I might not be here forever, forever, forever


This song puts me through an emotional gauntlet. There's no other way to describe it. Heart-rending lyrics, frantically sorrowful instrumentals...tear my heart out with this song, and I wouldn't even mind. My favorite 'song of the moment' thus far.





Photos by Cassie

movie talk


Duck Head Jeans Co. top / Topshop skirt / ASOS shoes / ebay sunglasses


So I've been a laazy blogger! Although I can't apologize for spending all last week working on two politics essays (20 pages total!) that I finally handed in yesterday. Such a great weight lifted! I'm so relieved that my next assignment isn't due for another...11 days. Because when you're forced to write two essays in five days, 11 days is an absolute luxury in comparison. :D




I've got a new addiction: zombie apocalypse! It's not a genre that I've ever really taken seriously, but I downloaded the first episode of 'The Walking Dead' on a whim, and it's just taken off from there. I've just finished 28 Days Later, and am currently on 28 Weeks Later...

I've never been very interested horror/slasher movies, because (I know this might come off a little snobbish) I don't want to watch a movie for the sole purpose of seeing people get killed in ridiculous and/or fantastical way; I simply want to get more out of it. Movies with human conflict, difficult choices, thought-provoking or uncomfortable questions, morally ambiguous behavior backed by the very best intentions.

That's why I'm so fascinated with 'The Walking Dead' and 28 Days Later. They retain that human drama, and there's a genuine poignancy that you don't really find in horror films. I also appreciate that they recognize the fact that in frightening circumstances, the monsters aren't the only things we end up fearing...sometimes we're our own worst enemy.

So I realize that this has nothing to do with outfit photos, but it's something that's been on my mind late, and I felt like sharing. :)

(And I'd love some good zombie film recs if you have them!)


Photos by Cassie